How to know you’re destroying your own dream without realising it

Do you want your past self to keep destroying the dream you’re creating now? Is it worth holding on to a belief harboured by an old version of yourself who didn’t know any better?

Think about it for a moment.

These negative thoughts are echoes from a past you, projecting their voice from a time of lack into your future of abundance and freedom.

This realisation hit me harder than usual. I’ve never considered that a past thought could be sent to a future self. It’s like sending a terminator from the future back to the past to alter that same future.

With this idea in mind: Overlay the metal skull with your own face. You are literally sending your future self, from a future of lack, into the present to sabotage any future of abundance.

You’re killing yourself. Are you okay with that?

Noticing the Self-Talk

This whole thought process came about from noting down negative self-talk. From there, I noticed the language was very similar to an old version of myself. If you’ve read Outwitting the Devil by Napoleon Hill, you’ll know that the devil latches onto you through negativity.

You may be immune to this negativity right now. But the reason you’re still feeling lost is because the devil is influencing you through a past self you still associate with.

How could you not?

You understand where “you” came from – the pain and effort it took to get here. But it’s this connection that allows him in. He’s a trickster; that’s his job. Nothing personal.

This is only one of the ways he gains access to your mind, but in my opinion, it’s the most sinister and scary. The fact is, he’s gaining access to your current self through an older version that was naive to the ways of the world.

Back then, you didn’t know right from wrong. Your best in the past, is a shadow of what it is now. And that’s the sad part.

He latches onto this former self, gaining access to you now because of the love you feel for that younger version. The back door into your mind, without even knowing it, is you.

He uses the innocent person who stumbled their way through everything. The devil is in control there.

Once you fully understand this, you must make a decision. Will you cut the past off, settle the emotional ties, and say goodbye?

Not an easy move, to say the least.

My Realisation of This Control

As I mentioned, this realisation came out during a journaling session where I wrote down all the limiting beliefs that surfaced during the week. I started with a thought I had just had: “I cannot possibly make this work.”

This was related to my personal brand. From this one thought, it started to cascade – down and down and down. The further I went, the more that came.

It was as if I had found a root inside myself that kept going. I didn’t stop until I reached eight or nine different reasons why I couldn’t make this work.

It stunned me; I didn’t realise these thoughts were still in my mind. Yet, as I pulled, there they were. And I stopped prematurely, so there may be even more up there.

I assessed the writing, and I had a flashback to when I was younger. I remembered calling myself a retard over and over. If I got anything wrong, that’s what I was. And no wonder I found things hard.

Even back then, I had a moment of realisation that this was destructive and forced myself to stop consciously saying it.

Yet, they say old habits die hard, and it took me a few months to truly stop hurting myself.

Until I finally replaced those harsh words with encouragement and inspiration. But as I read my answers aloud, it struck me how similar I sounded.

This was the way I used to talk to myself. I found it hard to believe that a past version was doing this. At that moment, I remembered the devil from Napoleon Hill’s interview with him.

He loves to use loved ones and friends against you to thwart your best efforts. Yet this was one step further.

He was using my younger self to enter my mind. Which is very clever because I already let that younger self in – because I was him!

This thought, speaking to me as I would’ve years ago, was doing it again. This is when I realised that the younger me was possessed by the devil.

What I Did About This

When I discovered this, I was overjoyed. Which may sound peculiar, why would I be happy about being possessed?

Well, now I’m aware of it. Ponder that for a second before reading on…

In that moment of connection, I was completely aware that something was wrong. I noticed the way I spoke to myself could only have come from the past. And this meant I had discovered the root of the problem.

Awareness means you can change. I saw it standing there, red-handed in my mind. And I resolved to banish it.

For too long, my thoughts have held me back. I’ve tried over and over to stop them, yet they came back each time. I was merely treating it as a mortal problem, but how can you kill a demon with a normal weapon?

For this, I needed to sever the connection, not just the negativity itself.

So, the piece of paper with all these writings and other introspective thoughts, which helped me visualise the problem, was sent to the fire.

Before that, I went to a place of power that I know and love, where I feel most connected. I poured my heart out, explaining what I had found, the story of how it came to be, and my gratitude to God for allowing me to see it.

After that, I let Him know my plan and asked for help.

So when I got back, I cast the piece of paper into the fire, asking for help to sever the connection. I feel that happened.

So from being aware of the problem, I found a solution and acted upon it swiftly. Because had I left it, the devil would’ve changed its plan.

Conclusion

If you read the above and thought to yourself, “What a load of rubbish,” fair enough. You don’t have to do the things I did. Because at the end of the day, that’s what I felt called to do. And I feel it worked.

For you, it may be as simple as burning the paper with the intention to sever that old connection that no longer serves you.

Or maybe it’s as easy as recognizing the problem and casting it out of your mind yourself.

For me, making these things real in the physical world makes them more tangible. My subconscious can connect the fire, asking for help, and confidently pushing it away together. So, to my subconscious mind, I burned the problem away.

Fire likes demons, but not the other way around. Just a note.

If this resonates with you, it may be time to sever this connection. Make peace with your past, write down all the things this previous version believes, and burn it.

Never forget to be grateful for that past self. Show compassion. Say, “I love you, goodbye.”

This reframe barely touches how sinister negative self-talk can be and the ways it can enter your mind.

It programs you to always think twice before taking an action that will change your future for the better, literally the opposite of following your gut feeling.

It’s almost as if something is trying to cut off that life-giving gut feeling from you.

Do you accept this? Will you allow something other than yourself to do this?

I should hope not.

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Elliott